she makes me believe.

you’re gonna regret everything you said tonight.

Since I’m lonely at school and have no friends, I plan to get sexy throughout the year. Which means excersising, eating healthy, and working out. So when I finally get sexy enough. These people from my school will be like “Damn, who’s that kid?” and I’ll be like, “I was here the whole time, you just didnt notice me cause I was ugly and fat.”

You know when you’re hurt, hurt by the person you love the most? It hurts alot knowing that you thought this person would never harm you, but then turns out they’re the person that makes you want to kill yourself? I’m not the skinnest person out there, but I try to be. I know some people think of me as the fatass that sits around eating and playing xbox. I know. But then I met this girl that made me thinking, if I really want this girl I would have to do something about myself and try working out and being more active. For a long period of time, I played volleyball, went to the gym at least twice a week, yet she still doesnt notice me, and the thing is, is that it hurts knowing that I’ve tried so hard, yet the person they I ‘love’ still doesnt see my hard work.
Don’t mind me, I’m ranting.

these are the times that i actually want to kill myself. i hate it when i really want to talk to someone and i go on msn or facebook chat and i start a conversation but they dont reply to me and then i assume that they are away from keyboard, but then i see them post stuff on their wall. It upsets me because at this point in my life, i actually need someone to talk to, to vent to actually.

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I hate how i care deeply for someone and they don’t do the same for me. I know that it was my choice of caring for them and i shouldn’t expect them to do the same back to me, but i really want someone to care for me, to know how i feel and to talk to me when i need it.